With multiple symptoms worsening, I went to Mayo Clinic for a week of testing: Heart disease stable; cancer in remission; kidney disease no change; emphysema still moderately severe; congestive heart failure steady. Extensive testing provided no answer for the mysterious neurological episode in July.
In the depths of seasonal affect disorder, I was at the end of my tether. The fatigue persisted, requiring 15-16 hours of sleep a day. Fogged in, my mind could not navigate. My legs and feet were shackled by neuropathy. Panicked thoughts of retirement and assisted living fluttered about.
As I was leaving, they gave me an, “Oh, by the way. We want you to return next week for an overnight sleep study.” I packed my jammies and a supply of dark chocolate and headed back to Rochester. The next morning, I met with the Doctor. Disturbed by the pattern of my sleep APNA, he dramatically re-calibrated my CPAP machine.
One should never underestimate the power of mere chance. Day by day, the fatigue is diminishing, the fog is lifting, and mere numbness is replacing the shackles. I am on the road again: Vitality, quick-witted repartee, and the foolish illusion of invincibility are back.
“A man devoid of hope and conscious of being so has ceased to belong to the future.”
“The struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill a man’s heart. One must
imagine Sisyphus happy.”
Albert Camus, “The Myth of Sisyphus and Other Essays”