About two years into my Ph.D. program I had an uber-typical, grad-student existential crisis and decided to drop out and pursue an MA in journalism instead. Since I was 14, I wanted to be a writer for Rolling Stone (more specifically I wanted to be P.J. O’ Rourke) and I had decided that, now in my early thirties, I would pursue my adolescent dream.

It took me two weeks into that program to realize I had made a grave mistake. I loved my classmates in J-school, but I truly missed a deep engagement with ideas. I missed the ability to plumb deeply into important issues. I felt as if I were being trained to quickly spit out a jumble of words that sounded like a coherent take on an issue, but was too immediate and empirical to say anything profound. No sooner did I leave my Ph.D. program that I bounded towards the chair’s door pleading to be readmitted.

Fast forward to 2009. I’m going up for tenure soon any many in my position wouldn’t ever say the word “blog.” But here I go, posting once a day….except Sundays. What motivates me to do this to myself? As Andrew Sullivan skillfully lays out in his own foray into this question:

a blog is not so much daily writing as hourly writing. And with that level of timeliness, the provisionality of every word is even more pressing—and the risk of error or the thrill of prescience that much greater

Why if blogging is exactly the kind of impulsive, unreflective, episodic writing that drove me from my journalism program, do I make myself blog? I spell out some of why I do it on an interview I did for Contexts But after thinking about it more, I think there’s something deeper.

I think part of my desire to blog has to do with a nagging desire to be relevant, to be part of the zeitgeist. Blogging brings with it the allure of unlimited possibility. With a WordPress or Blogger account anyone has the potential to be highly relevant. The best of academic work can also be relevant and in more profound ways than any blog post could, but the best academic work takes time, lots of it. And lots of good work never makes it out of its academic bubble.

But the blog allows a daily illusion, or promise, that my input can be of consequence by introducing them to a new idea or making them reflect more deeply about an issue. It also provides the chance to create good class discussions, so have at it.

Do you blog? Why? Can bloggers be relevant?

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