I am truly, truly happy again for the first time in years. Back where I should be, where everything about my body feels right. Running, running, and running some more.
Apparently, I’m not alone in this, and in the United States (as well as worldwide), we are experiencing another running boom. The first was in the 1970s, when people took to the roads in large numbers for the first time, and they are running in much larger numbers today. In 2008, 425,000 people finished a marathon, and marathons have become big business—travel destinations, boons for the economies of the cities and towns that host them. Participation is up from 25,000 people who finished a marathon in 1976:
Year Estimated U.S. Marathon Finisher Total
1976 25,000
1980 143,000
1990 224,000
1995 293,000
2000 353,000
2004 386,000
2005 395,000
2006 410,000
2007 412,000
2008 425,000 (record total) http://www.runningusa.org/node/16414
And that’s just the marathon—half marathons, 10Ks and 5Ks attract hundreds of thousands of others. So why a running boom, why now? I’ve got some ideas about this I’ll explore in future posts, along with the debate about how slow is too slow for a marathon time and whether the marathon should be primarily a competitive or participatory event. For a recent article exploring this issue, see the New York Times, http://www.nytimes.com/2009/10/23/sports/23marathon.html. This debate is part of a long history of such debates in the United States, whose sport governing bodies and sport educators have been divided on the question since the early twentieth century. Gender, and a claimed divide between male and female athletes, has been a major part of this debate—men are associated with the competitive model of sport, women with the participatory. This divide persists to some extent to this day, and I will be exploring the implications of this, along with the question of why certain sports are popular at certain times, and how this influences our body ideals. I’ll talk a bit about my own training, too, and its relation to my own ideas and feeling about bodies and gender.
My background: when I was younger, I was fast. I held the Arizona high school state record in the 1600 meters for 17 years http://az.milesplit.us/pages/Arizona_Track_and_Field_All_Time. I went to the University of Arizona on a track and cross-country scholarship, where I was competitive my freshman year, but so overtrained, injured, and burned out by my sophomore year I was ordered by my doctor to stop. I stopped competing, kept running on my own, but more slowly, and took up weight training, progressing over the years to competitive power lifting and specializing in the bench press, where I was ranked 11th in the U.S. in my weight class for a lift of 235. My body, as you might imagine, was completely transformed, from a skinny, slightly muscular 120 pounds to a dense, extremely muscular 150 pounds.
I’ve written about this elsewhere, but what I haven’t written was how unnatural it felt to be like that, what a Frankenstein’s monster I experienced that body to be. At one point I was so stiff I couldn’t turn my head to the side, and it hurt so much to run and I had to do it so slowly that I stopped altogether. When I discovered that the closest I could come to touching my toes was to barely touch the tops of my knees, I knew I had to do something about this and took up ashtanga yoga—an intense, demanding form of practice that follows the same forms each time and takes anywhere from ninety minutes to two hours to complete: http://www.kpjayi.org/ Ashtanga changed my morphology again, and after six years I was down to 135 and the creaking cement that had been my chest and shoulders was finally starting to crack.
Then came the mid-life crisis moment, for me the occasion of my 45th birthday last September. In July I decided that I was tired of worrying about aging and the wrinkles on my face, and I was going to do something about it. In the (il)logic of my world, this meant dropping back down to my college weight and body fat percentage (120 pounds and 12 percent), and I bought one of those diet and exercise journals where you record each calorie you ingest and each you burn, along with the relative percentage of carbohydrates to proteins and fats. That did it, and by my birthday I was down to 123 and 11.7 percent. So I’m giving myself a break on that last three pounds.
What I didn’t expect was that at this lighter weight, running felt good again. I started back slowly at first, running only once a week, a six miler on Sundays. By August I’d added some track work, and by November was up to a ten miler on Mondays, a six miler on Fridays, and at least four miles on each of two other days, meanwhile maintaining my ashtanga practice. By December, I’d gotten a Polar heart rate monitor, and was completely, utterly hooked, back in the that running world I’d lived in from 1979-1983, except with a lot more technology attached. With a HRM you can measure not only your heart rate, distance and calories, but your speed, cadence, altitude changes, and pretty much anything else you might like to know. By January, I’d signed up for a marathon in June, another in October that is 26.2 miles straight up hill the entire way and climbs 6,000 feet, and had started to look forward to my runs the way you look forward to whatever activity it is that you love the most, at home in my body in a way I’d never been.  Insane by most standards of sanity, clearly.
What are the implications of this changing body, changing activity slate, changing mind? For me, for you? How is the way we experience our bodies in physical activity a function of gender? What are your current physical training regimes, your backgrounds? I will explore these issues in future posts, and welcome your comments on any of these issues.
Comments
Rebecca London — February 3, 2010
I also have been enjoying a fitness renewal in my early 40s. I suffered years of chronic back pain that left me worried each time I lifted a laundry basket (and derailed any hopes I had to run, mountain bike, or do anything else). About 18 months ago I started going to CrossFit, which is a weightlifting "boot camp" type program that has affiliates nationally and internationally (I go to the original one in Santa Cruz, CA). It has literally changed my life. I have strengthened all the muscles that support my back and core. I'm not going for any weightlifting records, but I can run, mountain bike, canoe, ski and do just about anything else (including lift heavy weight from floor to overhead) pain-free and without worry. I feel completely liberated. A few weeks ago when my husband threw his back out, he remarked with a tinge of jealousy that it's very convenient to have a wife who can deadlift more than her body weight. I noticed that when I coupled this with a new nutrition package, those extra pounds have started to melt away. On marathons, I wonder if an increase in the number of races is driving the number of runners (it's a supply and demand equilibrium because the reverse could also be true).
Rose Chang — February 3, 2010
Interesting aspects about gender with running. I might argue (without data backing me that I know of) that there are men for whom running is not competitive, as much as there are women for whom running is not participatory, but competitive as it seems like it was/is for you. There are many men who won't qualify for the NY marathon, but still enjoy running marathons - they can't necessarily compete with those at the top, but enjoy running none-the-less.
And I can't believe all women don't pay attention to their times v. those of friends, etc. Maybe some don't care, but most activities aren't pure of a little competitive spirit!
Deborah Siegel — February 3, 2010
Leslie, welcome to GwP and thank you for this wonderful inaugural post! I used to run (slowly), then hurt my knee and stopped, then went for the first time post-pregnancy a few weeks ago, at a snail's pace. I'm trying to figure out how to fit running back into a busy life, with a start-up and twins. You remind me how addictive it can get (in the good way), and how a body can feel like home once again. I will keep trying. And I look forward to the conversation about the gendering of it all!
Allison Kimmich — February 4, 2010
Hi Leslie,
I'm fascinated by the issues you raise here. I would definitely agree that some of my most compelling gender experiences have been ones that I experience bodily, from pregnancy & childbirth to my own mid-life fitness transformation. I look forward to reading more from you on this topic.
Allison
Caitlin Constantine — February 4, 2010
I've only been running for three years now but I have to say I think the gender divide when it comes to running has been greatly overstated. I only know a few runners who are competitive against each other - mostly women, by the way - while every other runner I know does it to compete against him or herself and to enjoy the party-like atmosphere of street racing.
I have a lot to say on the matter of running, but probably the most important thing is how running changed my life. Before I started running I ate terribly, drank too much and smoked. I was also plagued with a sense of my own weakness and feelings of incompetence, no doubt helped along by a very troubled long-term relationship.
All of that is long gone. I ran my first marathon in January in nearly freezing temperatures. I came across the finish line, and I marveled at my toughness. I realized I was full of power and courage I didn't know I possessed, and it completely changed the way I saw myself. It's hard to perceive yourself as weak and a victim and incompetent when you know you are capable of running 26.2 miles.
I absolutely see running - and any kind of physical activity, really - as a feminist act, because it shows us to see our bodies as strong and capable of action, rather than burdens whose value only lies in the way they look to others.
Kristen — February 6, 2010
Thank you for the insightful post! I also ran (long-distance) competitively in high school, burned out, and ran sporadically through college and my twenties. After my daughter was born, I started running seriously again, inspired by a free sample of an interval training HRM set that I did some graphic design work for. After a few years, I started entering races to give me a goal to work towards. My doctor encouraged me to try a marathon; I had never considered running more than a half, but she told me how, after having her son at 40, she'd run a marathon every year since for twelve years. So I signed up and was hooked.
Running marathons has changed how I see myself in some subtle but important ways. I finally call myself an athlete. Although I've always been engaged in some sort of athletic activity, they have mostly been solo, non-competitive things (snowboarding, kyaking, yoga), and for some reason, I never identified as an "athlete". Marathons have also, along with childbirth, changed the way I feel about my body. I have battled with self-consciousness over my legs since cellulite first appeared on them the summer before college. Now, I know that they're still going to look basically the same, even if I'm running 50+ miles a week. Combined with the accomplishment of birthing my daughter and nursing her for 3 years, my body feels like a powerhouse, no matter how I perceive it to look in comparison to others.
Leslie Heywood — February 6, 2010
You all raise such compelling issues that will have to be part of future posts: Deb's comment leads to a discussion of childcare arrangements and how one carves out enough time to train; Kristen's comment points to body image issues and how these are negotiated differently as one ages, and how sports participation affects them; Caitlin's comment provides absolutely compelling testament to the adage I've explored in much of my work--sport is a feminist issue, which Rebecca and Allison also suggest; and Rose extrapolates on the competitive vs. participatory debate that, though historically gendered, is, as her comment suggests, somewhat disrupted by activities like the marathon. I found a statistic today that said 40.9% of marathon finishers are now women--much more to come on all this! Thanks for reading, and happy running, or whatever physical activity you're taking part in . . .
Emma — February 7, 2010
Wow, I love this post and the generated discussions. I run now and then and also go to the gym. I have run a couple of half-marathons and am trying to psyche myself up for a full eventually. Only recently have I started to realise how 'empowering' it is. It makes me feel great about myself. In so many areas of life I feel powerless, but exercising makes me realise I have a lot of power - to change the way I feel, to change the way I look, to push my body so it hurts, but feels good at the same time. I had never thought of exercise as a feminist act but now I definitely see it as one and totally agree with Caitlin. Being fit, healthy and strong (I love to lift weights too) makes me feel good about what I look like, and happy about my mind/body balance. I always came last at every sporting even at school, because I'm so small and puny (!) and only became physically active in my 20s. I still come almost last in most of the events I enter, but I am very competitive with myself.
Георгий — February 14, 2010
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